Of Men and Moons...

Amongst all my classes and studying of the day, I found I had a little time to write in my blog.  To be honest, it was the fact that it was raining which prompted me to begin thinking about the deeper things of life.  And what are deep thoughts worth if they are never vocalized.  At first, I wanted to write a long and impressively deep and witty blog about a profound topic of my choice.  

However, as I began to write I realized that I had not spent much time with my Creator today.  The one who is the whole reason why I exist, breath, and really live in freedom.  There is so much life found in simply conversing with Him and it shows in my mood when I fail to do so.  

Anyhow, I realize that by writing this much of a post, I am contradicting my statement that I should go spend time with Him before other things.  Nevertheless, I decided to write a short bit to convey what God put on my heart.  I had a realization of a way in which my thinking was a bit off.  Here it is:

I wanted to put up a blog because I wanted people to see me.  

Now this is a simple statement so I'll explicate.  Most bloggers, if you ask them, get a satisfaction out of people seeing the brilliance of their day to day thought or action which often goes unnoticed.  Now, I am not saying that this necessarily is bad.  It is good to be seen by others for who you are because they are not just seeing you but a God who is very much alive in you.  

Where the problem comes in is when you are writing or performing or doing anything along those lines in which you are being seen by others in order to be fulfilled.  

Only intimacy with God can do that.  

We were meant to tell God exactly what we think and feel for the restoration of our soul.  This is because only He can see all of who we are, flaws and all, and still be madly in love with us; and out of that love, speak words of life-giving affirmation and guidance.

You were made to be seen by God.  If you are seen by others let them see you like they see the moon; wonderful and beautiful and awesome, but only as it reflects the light of the sun (or Son).  

Tis all.

"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven."  Matthew 6:1 NIV

The Desires of my Heart

I noticed that when I am seeking to meet with God, I sometimes find it difficult to connect with Him, especially when I suppress the desires of my heart.  However, when I open up and tell GOd my desires and hopes and feelings and then submit them to Him, everything is out on the table and I don't have to worry.  Instead, I can move on to trust those desires to God and delight myself in Him.

Presence vs. Monotonous

I often feel like my job can drain me physically and sometimes spiritually depending on the work atmosphere.

Consequently, I often avoid thinking about work or even those individuals whom I work with when I'm not at work.

As a result of this attitude, I typically don't end up praying for those I work with out of the fear that bringing wok into my resting time with ruin my relaxation, and/or quiet time.

Am I really going to believe that my work atmosphere is more potent the atmosphere oh His presence??  Bringing work into my prayer life will not taint my time with God.

Quite the opposite.

God overwhelms my work place as I pray and makes it a place of joy and His Holy Spirit.

Rather than the monotonous of work being dragged into my peaceful times with God, the peace of God overwhelms the monotony of my workplace.

Galaxies and People

I was just thinking and pondering various things, talking to God about them.

Recently, I've been feeling like I need to slow down a bit. Doing so tonight has led me to notice things.

Earlier during my quiet time I was thinking about how He created the world.

Of course He created everything else, but just that he created the world from the largest aspects to the smallest.

I have often thought about how there are so many things in this universe that I will never understand or search out;

Neither in thought, imagination, or with my senses.

There are entire intricate galaxies that exist, so daringly large and beautiful, stretching for millions upon billions of miles.

Yet if you were to take one square centimeter of matter from those billions of miles, you could fine amazing detail of design in every atom.

And we take all this for granted.

A bit later, I was thinking about my brother Phillip.

I was just thanking God for him. And I realized that similarly, people in our lives are existing, yet unknown by anyone save for God.

I truly believe that human emotions are as complex as a galaxy.

I don't want to take for granted those He has put close to me in my life.

Just because there will be billions of people you could never even begin to get to know, it ought not to stop you from searching out the complexity of those around you.

It will take more thought to explain why, but I somehow I just know that taking time to get to know those around you will give you a better idea of who the Creator is.

Things to think on. To ponder on. I like that word...ponder.